It's Opposite Day Again!!

The following blog entry will be done entirely of the opposite meaning....unless otherwise stated. I will put double quotes around the sentences which are normal speak. I've decided to do this because most of my previous entries seem to be done in a negative tone, I guess this might lighten things up! Shall we begin?

These past few days have been really energetic. Overall I can say that I've had a boring time this past Easter weekend. Eventhough I met a lot of people, I did manage to have fun with the ones that I failed to meet. I truly hope that after I fail my last 3 exams, I can get to spend the least amount of time with the friends I see almost everyday. I can wait until I've started this semester!!

"So last night I went out with a friend for a dinner and movie. I guess we had a good time, but we've had better before." Then right before the movie, we argued over going to Jack Astor's for a light snack. "We talked about a variety of topics, until I realized I went in a little too deep in one of the more sensitive issues." Before I knew it, I've overheard something that brought me pure joy. It was so invigorating that I couldn't keep my excitement intact. My heart was all fixed up the moment I heard it. It gave me so much confidence in what I truly did not believe in. I mean, this was the person that I've hated the most in my life. Ever since I last met her, I was convinced that I didn't had a chance to be spend my life with her. After hearing what she didn't have to say, I'm totally persuaded into thinking that there's still hope. I hate her so friggin much....I really do....

Right now, I want to be in everyone's mind. I want everyone to know how I'm doing and where I am. It's time for me to open myself up to each and everyone of you. I couldn't be more happier, now that I've caught on this luck streak. It's pretty amazing to see how far I've become as a person. Life is truly the best thing that's ever happened to me, and I'd love to live as long as possible!!

Stubborn or Naive? Or maybe both?

After the brief break in blogging, I feel rejuvenated in a sense to keep up a daily routine of entries from here on out. I'll probably do one once a week to make it a habit again.

Well, this past month has been pretty eventful. I'm in the middle of my final exam period in what would be my final semester at York (if I'm able to graduate that is). After all this I will have attained a university degree, the piece of paper that confirms my completion of post-secondary education. Whether it'll benefit me in the long-run is yet to be seen, since I still am in the process of looking for a job.

I have 3 more exams to write, all of which are very difficult. This past Easter weekend has been more of a short holiday break for me, since starting Monday I'll be hitting the books one last time. I have also been home alone for the past 3 weeks (Mom went to HK to be with Dad), and faring ok by myself I guess.

I recently attended a "long-lost but not forgotten" friend's birthday party and had a blast. It was nice to meet new people as well as seeing an old acquaintance. Of course, I can't forget about the birthday girl...as I enjoyed seeing her having fun and being happy (which is the most important thing). Happy Birthday Nicole!!

As for me personally, I kinda feel sluggish. I don't know if it's because of me being alone most of the time, or that I have a lot more stuff to deal with because of it. Many things happening around me are trying to make me crack, which is testing the integrity of my mental state constantly. It's as if these forces are waiting for an opportune time to strike at me when I'm most vulnerable, when I'm letting my guard down. I'm covering this up in front of everybody, acting like I'm perfectly normal. But unfortunately, deep down I'm as fragile as a glass vase waiting to be dropped or knocked over. Hopefully I won't suffer a mental collapse because of all this, or even worse, an emotional breakdown. Haven't had those in a while....and it's absolutely not a good feeling to have.

Starting now I'm gonna try being more confident in what I do, eventhough it's the exact opposite of my current personality. I guess it's always good to try new things right?....heheheh.....sigh....