Locking up....for good
After spending more time on the road than in class today (3 hours of driving, 1 and a half hour of lecture), it would seem I would feel very annoyed and angered by all of this. But it didn't happen. It was though I had to actually "try" to feel angry about the whole situation. Maybe I'm use to all the troubles from morning rush hour.
Or maybe I'm just emotionally spent, nothing left in the tank. I can't say I've been happy recently, nor have I been sad. I don't even have the will to realize what state I'm currently in. Things haven't turned out as I've hoped, but that didn't give me any reason to feel either way. I seek refuge from my peers way too many times lately, so I've decided not to bother them anymore.
I've also decided to drop whatever dreams I've had for the time being. One could say this is pathetic and weak, since these things drive us to become better people. They're probably right, but I feel too powerless to think otherwise (the pessimist side talking again). I have become the puppet, where others will use me or treat me however they wish. Time to start following orders...
I'm closing the door behind me, locking it up for good....
After spending more time on the road than in class today (3 hours of driving, 1 and a half hour of lecture), it would seem I would feel very annoyed and angered by all of this. But it didn't happen. It was though I had to actually "try" to feel angry about the whole situation. Maybe I'm use to all the troubles from morning rush hour.
Or maybe I'm just emotionally spent, nothing left in the tank. I can't say I've been happy recently, nor have I been sad. I don't even have the will to realize what state I'm currently in. Things haven't turned out as I've hoped, but that didn't give me any reason to feel either way. I seek refuge from my peers way too many times lately, so I've decided not to bother them anymore.
I've also decided to drop whatever dreams I've had for the time being. One could say this is pathetic and weak, since these things drive us to become better people. They're probably right, but I feel too powerless to think otherwise (the pessimist side talking again). I have become the puppet, where others will use me or treat me however they wish. Time to start following orders...
I'm closing the door behind me, locking it up for good....
