The missing piece of the puzzle
School has started and what is supposed to be my final year of my program has finally dawned upon me. The hardest part about this whole thing is where I find myself after I graduate. I have absolutely no clue where I will end up or if I could become successful. Boy am I in for a wild ride....
Good to see familiar faces around the York campus. The place just gets more congested each and every year. Textbooks again are at their usual high prices, which is driving me crazy trying to find alternatives. At least the professors teaching the higher level courses are much more competent and helpful. They actually know how to teach unlike some of the early-year profs I had.
It appears I have another mental dilemma in my hands once again. It's more like a stumbling-block of my stubborn thinking process, or rather a day-dreaming tendency. The more I ponder the more I increase the chance of me screwing up my mind or do something catastrophically embarassing. I keep putting it at the back of my mind and brush it aside, hoping the feeling would go away. But every so often it comes back and challenges my tolerance. When you're emotionally attached to someone, it's very difficult to pretend you are not day in and day out. I always result in questioning myself ...."Should I stop the charade? Do I have the guts to stand up to whatever consequences I encounter? How does she really think about me? Am I over-hallucinating on the signals that I receive?"
What am I missing? If I knew, then how come I've never seem to obtain it? All these questions.....and no answers in sight.
Listening to: Incomplete - Backstreet Boys
School has started and what is supposed to be my final year of my program has finally dawned upon me. The hardest part about this whole thing is where I find myself after I graduate. I have absolutely no clue where I will end up or if I could become successful. Boy am I in for a wild ride....
Good to see familiar faces around the York campus. The place just gets more congested each and every year. Textbooks again are at their usual high prices, which is driving me crazy trying to find alternatives. At least the professors teaching the higher level courses are much more competent and helpful. They actually know how to teach unlike some of the early-year profs I had.
It appears I have another mental dilemma in my hands once again. It's more like a stumbling-block of my stubborn thinking process, or rather a day-dreaming tendency. The more I ponder the more I increase the chance of me screwing up my mind or do something catastrophically embarassing. I keep putting it at the back of my mind and brush it aside, hoping the feeling would go away. But every so often it comes back and challenges my tolerance. When you're emotionally attached to someone, it's very difficult to pretend you are not day in and day out. I always result in questioning myself ...."Should I stop the charade? Do I have the guts to stand up to whatever consequences I encounter? How does she really think about me? Am I over-hallucinating on the signals that I receive?"
What am I missing? If I knew, then how come I've never seem to obtain it? All these questions.....and no answers in sight.
Listening to: Incomplete - Backstreet Boys
